somewhere neither here nor there.
Always listen to your heart and to your own inner guidance. Being a woman in any industry, I think you’re sort of taught to listen to everybody else, and please and appease everyone. And, I definitely get caught up with that, and wanting everyone to really love what I’m doing, or to really see how much work I put into things. But, at the end of the day, if someone’s telling you something that doesn’t feel right to you, you need to always trust your own instincts. It’s okay to say no, and it’s okay to have your own ideas. I don’t think young women are being told that enough. I think they’re being told to do what everyone wants them to do, and be what everyone wants them to be, and look how everyone wants them to look. I would encourage originality — and, there’s ironically a safety in the vulnerability of that.
If you’re a good artist, you spend a long time absorbing, and then at a certain point, you figure out how to put those influences back out into the world in your own way.
Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through.
I’d much rather have a Paul Thomas Anderson, man, than a Cody.